20 Signs That You Might Be Depressed

1. You are always too busy - never have or take the time to give yourself the care you need.
2. You are running from something; something is eating at you.
3. You keep things that bother you locked up inside, festering . You're are afraid to speak about disappointment, hurt, fears; you are afraid to express anger. You hold on to grudges for way too long.
4. You can't ask people for what you need.
5. You lie about everything, even simple things.
6. You can't wait to get home to eat - something, anything- and lots of it. It's the only thing that soothes you.
7. You just don't have energy to do anything  - you have to force yourself to do everything.
8. Everything is so hard that you're sleeping a lot. It's damn near impossible to get up. You are afraid to get up.
9. You can't seem to concentrate - on any one thing.
10. You are steadily gaining weight.
11. You are not doing work that brings you joy; you are just working a gig and holding out for the paycheck.
12. You haven't been touched in months or years; you haven't gotten any (yeah, I said it!)in who knows how long; hell you haven't even had a massage!
13. You have a persistent, gnawing feeling that something is wrong.  And you're right!
14. People are talking - you know this because their lips are moving- but you have no idea what they are saying. You aren't even there.
15. You used to care a lot about what you wore; now you just wear anything that fits.
16. You stay a home a little too often.  You call in sick at least once a month.
17. You think this is the end of your rope-there's no way you can face another day.
18. You wonder if you're having a nervous breakdown.
19. You cry a lot and without warning.
20. Every morning you wake up with crippling anxiety, terrified to get out of bed and face the world.

Excerpt from "Black Pain" It Just Looks Like We're Not Hurting by Terrie M. Williams